别怕，这路已看到终点

回到家里，没有二话就把热水煲好了。
无意间想起是时候把交房租了。
把钱拿到楼上去给房主。

其实没什么大不了，习惯就好。
我了解自己，也不曾看不起自己。
因为我明白自己生活背景影响自己性格一切，
自己思考方式，生活方式，都是自然发生。
我并不幼稚，
然而我并没有选择自己的开头。
我还在跟着岁月，时间，经验慢慢成长。
认真，或不认真。
并不是用眼睛观看，而是用心体会的。

我不容易生气，
也并不是我没有自尊。
还是我坦然赞同。
只是，心理明白，
就算你不再支持我的梦，
我选择的梦依然持续。

我切尽所能，做应该做的。
路好难走，寂寞好难堪，
偶尔真的好伤，偶尔让自己迷惑下去
但这路依然没有到终点前，都不能放弃。

这些语言，都是我奋斗的动力。
这些幻觉英雄，我知道不存在。
这些标准，我确定不正确。
我永远更不会拿你和别人做比较。
你，是我爱的你。只有一个。
好的我欣赏，坏的我包容。

我还是我，不管多久多长。

我不知道未来，

但我知道，我要做的，

不可能做不到。

吃得苦中苦,方为人上人

今天 可以说是我最忙的一天，仿佛完全没有休息

吃了早餐后，就匆匆忙忙, 跟着时间赛跑

先来到KL，做完事情后

就立刻到PJ, 以为还蛮准时,还要等待

虽然并不是很饿，但时间关系，

随便解决了午餐，

然后，就立刻匆匆得飞去KLANG

这是我工作第一次迟到，幸好只是罚钱。

毕竟我连自己做工地方电话号码都不知道，所以无法提前联络

反正也没有人得空回应我的迟到。

到店里，就没有停过了,

一直到7点放工

心理已经筋疲力竭了,

想着终于可以冷静下来了。

27.85

我是男人。一口气。一个信念。

虽然今晚并没有完美, 问心 无愧。

这疲惫, 倒霉一天。

我把它丢在这里，

因为我不想把不高心事情，

变得更彻底, 恶劣。

希望我做个好梦，

太阳依然升起,

明天又是奋斗的一天，开心的一天，

加油，俊源！

头脑要清脆，

思想要简单,

计划要周到,

目标要一致，

信念要稳固，

压力要控制，

情绪要自制，

喜怒要衡量，

我要一直坚持。

看这镜子，我清楚，

自己一点都不差

Highlights of the day

8 year old patient came with parents, complaint of blurred vision at near. Sometimes she will use her daddy reading glasses to read.

Refraction and cyclo-refraction shows Plano on both eyes.
Dr. commend on her, eyes are healthy, just sometimes she feel tired and dry eye. so just use some eye drops and rest more will do. Their parents face doesn't seem agree with what doctor says.

After consultation,
I personally bring the parents into the refraction room. I gave them  explanation on their daughter's eyes. I tell them, Your daughter's eyes muscles weakness could be one of the reasons why she having the problem with near work. Convergence insufficiency or accommodation insufficiency are potential to cause your daughter problem.

Although it seems not suppose to, I prescribed them +0.50 DS for reading purpose, ask her to stop wearing her daddy glasses. And taught her and parents pencil push up test just for 3times per day. It finally make some sense to them. That's all I could help, I say.

Daddy told me, "thank you. I'll make sure she do it everyday."    

Nothing special actually, I just think she at least deserve to know the fact of her eye since the parents paid RM158 and waited for 3 hours.

P/s: Doctor is good at marketing and consulting (persuading)

A little note to my life now

Working at this company has too much multi tasking, too many new things to learn, too much of task has to be done.

I step out from my house for the first time, with too many passions and targets. I'm going to achieve those goals I set. keep remaining myself.

Living outside alone was not easy. I learn to wash my first cloth, prepare my own breakfast just some milk and oak, cook my hot water every night. "You are on your own" my mother told me. not quite. thanks to my lovely girl friend and my caring family, I'm always grateful to have you all, sometimes just making me more dependant.

In order to survive for long at here,  I need to be mentally and physically strong. I must control my emotion and play with it to the maximum. I need to be healthy, stay healthy and sleep early all night. No one will take care of you when you are down. The only way to prevent you down, stay healthy.

Fast learning is also compulsory here. If I'm walking too slow, I'm going to drag the whole team with me. Then, I will automatically become a burden. No time to think what I have learnt during my Uni, most of them are not useful during my career. What more important is, learn to show out to patient that you are different from others and given them confident and educating them. At least I must do this, if I can't do then I'm failure to be an optometrist.

No need to show off. No need. Because it's no need. Show off doesn't mean you keep presenting some knowledge. Show off also includes denial  people's statements. Act like a fool is a best way to learn most. When 2 persons is arguing a facts on a topic that you clearly understood, I would just stand a side and listen instead of telling out the truths. because at the end what they cares is, who wins.

There are 2 things I can gain from here,
1- shaping the ability skill to multitasking
2- study how system works so well in a company