Monday, January 13, 2014

外劳与我












他们国家贫穷, 生活成问题,
他们一家大小甚多,
所以他们离乡背井,

来到了外地寻找更好生活,
希望可以用劳力, 赚回一些金钱

大部分在这没有家庭,
大部分都是做着一些危险很高的工作,
对社会有贡献的工作,
然而他们并一点都不被尊重, 被当成外劳
没有社会地位,也没有尊严

他们有的在工厂,有的在建筑业, 有的倒垃圾,
他们月薪只并不多,
但他们心里,也许只有一个信念
就是用心工作,努力工作,
也许没有任何目标,只要安居乐业和定时寄钱回家就够了


知足常乐, 感受到了自己其实多么幸福
没有烦恼的生活,
我很知足,没有什么好要求的
只有做尽力好自己该做的, 就足够了

求学时,我们就是像油炸鬼这样,天天年粘在一起
是我太天真以为来到到这里, 就可以和以前一样
能够和你一起,开开心心,.

你公司有人向你暧昧了.我知道的.
尽管如此,你脾气多了, 你也说工作累了,
但口里就常常说我变了.

难道是我想多了.
我不想变成以前那个他.






Tuesday, January 7, 2014

对症下药,靠你了

和往常一样,我很喜欢简单生活
没有烦恼的,自然的,开心的,无忧无虑的

这几天,我很满足了
小孩脾气已经发完了
生活要继续下去了

你生日那天其实我们都过得很开心
这些日子都提不起劲来,原因都是我太会吃醋
那天,一早我到你家来,接了漂亮的你
在那Pavilion 广场里,我们很自由自在
这地方真的很舒服,
像两个小情侣,手牵手一同走
试试衣服,看看电影,观赏风景,
晚餐,我和你家人有说有笑一起度过
是个开心的一天。

今天,早上我到你家来了。
虽然,本来的西餐店没开,但还是吃了你想吃的ba ku teh
到了GM买你的一打必须用品,
购物的感觉真好,慢慢选慢慢挑,我又怎么不知道女人的心情呢
所以我也买了一些袜子
回家了,好像老歌怀念酱,拿起吉他就是这样弹唱起来
我真的很享受,
享受在雨天里,柔柔的灯光里,温柔的屋子里,
和你一起被充满温馨吉他声,你静静聆听,我静静哼着。
夜里,和朋友出来聚聚,周星驰的电影我不可能没看过,
永远都那么好笑,
没有花言巧语,没有多余应酬,
我们只是坐在一起看着,笑着。朋友。如此简单。
来回家路上你都很累,你睡着像猪酱也没有打扰你的打算
看着你,心里在想,我要快点长大,
我要给你保护给你安全感
只是希望你可以等我那么一天。
晚安。



放下,不是口中说说而已
let go and be trustful. sincerely and truthfully.
Only then, I can look forward optimistically.


昨晚,看了很多文章,都很有道理,
尽然已经是事实,我也不能做什么。
我不能改变他行为举动,他有他的权利。
我只可以让你知道我想法,我的感受。
下一步,就是靠你了

品冠说
“对症下药,不然病情恶化
只能说无可救药。”



Sunday, January 5, 2014

TRUST

A lesson to be learnt.
TRUST
But wait. What it really is?
I even google about it.

It's sub-divided into psycology, socialogy and economics.

Trust in psycology is believing that the person who is trusted will do what is expected.
If a person is psycologically trusted, it will result of security, trust and optimism, while failed it leads to orientation of insecurity and mistrust.  It's applied in relationship.

Trust in socialogy is concerned with the postition and role of trust in a social systems. How much trust your colleagues given to you are measured by how much responsibility they have putting on your shoulder. It's applied in works.

Trust in economics is equal to trustworthiness. How reliable the transaction is, and how desire a party to reduce the cost or maximize the utility.

I have good sense. I always sense unexpected things like human behaviors, intentions, and thoughts.
It's doesn't come naturely because everything that happens always have it's own reason.

To trust or not to trust?
The answer always generated complexly in our brain based on incidents of past, now and predicted future. But the answer always reveal by it's common.

Is love all about trust?
I love you, so I trust you. but because I love you, so I feel jealousy.
I love you and I trust you, but when you not rejecting a desperate guy's flirts, gifts, cares.
You failed to do what I expected. But I love you. and I trust you.



Story line

First time I saw his message, I told you, "he's intention is obvious."
You ask me to trust. He has someone he love. He told everyone.
"Make no sense to me unless he's stupid."

Second time, I heard you are going to cinema,
Gathering is good, healhty and chilling. I'm always trusting you I say.

Saturday night, a night for Pasar Malam.
It's a big and crowdy Pasar Malam, shopping is always your favourite.
I'm still trusting you.

Some days later,
Cinema farewell for a colleague.
Your birthday eve, 2 guys came to your house fetch you to cinema.
Handmade chocolate cake and a branded watches that delivered at 12am midnight.
Reached your house and asked whether you need accompany.

Trust is stepping one step backward from your social and give freedom to your private life.
I'll define trust as ignorant.


I should have trust you,  I convince myself with one more reason.
not about confidence, or belief.
It's because it ends your pain.
I don't want you to leave me,
I don't want to give you any reason to leave me and go oversea.
I suffered with tears, I cry like a kid.
But it ends your pain.

A monk says.
"Be confidence, and love her more like no one. If she meant to leave, sooner or later she will leave.
Go and cry out loud, as your will, but when you finish your tears, you became a better person. You should be happy because you lost a girl who doesn't love you, and she lost a guy who willing to do everything for her."


Trust is about love, true.
But if you loving someone, you don't change the origin of that person. He's might not your dream man, and he will not try hard to fix it, because he is perfectly being who he is, and he loves every single thing that belonging to you.

Trust still hard to define.
but one fact is, when you loving someone,
you will not do something that hurts him/her no matter what causes it takes.






Thursday, January 2, 2014

我蹦溃了

我崩溃了

我好爱你,爱到就快无法爱自己

我知道这些都不在我控制范围里
我可以做的就只有更珍惜你,更爱你

我只能够做好自己的事,
为自己生活打算。

我要更努力,
更更更努力!

不能再是以前懒惰的我了!

天蝎
虽然外表坚硬,
内心却如此感性。